The expensive gift that I didn't like :(

How is it?!, said an excited, loving AM.
Hmm, 'you tell me how it looks on me!', said a trying-to-look-excited', hesitant me, trying to hide my real emotion....

Well, the fact of the matter was straight, I didn't like the diamond pendant-earring set that I was just gifted. Secondly, the fact that we have been trying to save for our house down payment, such an expenditure seemed so unwarranted to me, esp. given the fact that I am not too gungho about gold from a fashionista perspective (its a great investment though!).

But somehow I managed to evade it.... but not for long though, an hour later as AM and me were driving down to drop me to office, he asked again 'I think you didn't like it too much'.... that was enough to start me off in clarification of 'why I didn't like it'...  and in the process I did manage to make it clear 'I DID N'T LIKE IT!' .....sometimes its so rightly advisable to shut-one's crappy opinion to self... but I didn't and here I I spoilt it all for him in so many words... :( :(

ultimately, he did add in frustration.... 'AS, you are such a difficult person to gift!'.... well, which girl would cringe at a loving 30k gold jewellery gift on Karwachauth'!! ??probably I am.

PS: I did add in the middle of the conversation somewhere that 30k could have bought lenses for my 'desired' SLR camera! .... and also managed to ask him 'how much making did they charge on the jewellery?'

arz kiya hai

Mar 2010... unhone likha... 


Na mails ke jawab ate, mobile par sirf callertune hi sunte, 
Na mails ke jawab ate, mobile par sirf callertune hi sunte, 
Aye mere humsafar, sitaronki bheer mai, 
reh gaye  hum apne chaand ko dhoondte!


PS: Might not rhyme well, but it did time well

Visit again...

Ladies & gentleman, you are going to witness some serious interior designing in the coming months. A & me are about to shift to a new house (yeah, its a rented acco, but still OUR home) and my creative urges are itching to burst out. Watch out this space.

'Remember'

I have joined a new job and my successful stint of 'working with good managers' has cone to an end. He is one of the meanest (if not THE meanest) managers that you would encounter around. More on this later.... 

So, I get this mail from my bf at 9.50 AM:

"Subject: Remember

1. HTC 2. EnY 3. Have fruits 4. Stay cool 5. Use Profanity :)

"

PS: Obviously the last one is meant for peer discussions/ cribbings only

... and I wonder again...

Do i love him with all my 'mind'?
Yes


Do i love him with all my 'heart'?
YES


Do i love him with all my 'soul'?
YEP


Do i love him with all my 'physical self' ;-) ? 
YEAH


and do you think the same is true from his side?? 
yes :)


Oye lucky, te tainu fikar kaisii!!

Need suggestion

If you have been reading my blog for sometime.... you would know that there is an important character that has entered my blog... my boyfriend (people choose to call him my fiance too, coz technically we are engaged).

His intials are same as mine i.e. A.

So, I started calling him A2, but thats so uncool... So, I am in the process of finding a good blog name for him..... I can obv use his second name to form an acronym but thats not exciting too...

Ummm.... May be I can call him He-A and call myself She-A...... :O

But He-A sounds like He-man..... (btw how silly the word He-man is!!, perfect example of what we used to call redundancy in C++)...

May be I can call him Mr.A and call myself Ms.A.... but I do think there ought to be better choices!!!! :|

Morning Good Morning mail

On a group mail....

A2 : Good morning all

K: (another friend on the group mail): Morning all!!

Me: Lovely, cloudy morning today!

K: Pray that you don't end up spending hours on the road by evening.

Me: I am an optimist... :D

I hope it rains and rains hard...!! roads should be clogged throughout the evening... and then it will get too late to travel with the cabbie driver.... so somebody will be forced to drive down from their Gurgaon office to mine (20 kms), and safely drop me to my house (35kms)...

K: thats the spirit! A2, u r damn lucky ;)

Down-on-the-knees-begging

He: BTW, you are coming to drop your laptop and my stuff today evening, aren't you?

SHE: why should I!? do your own stuff

HE: Depends on you. Take your call.

ME: No!!!! you got to loosen up and give something hon! coz 'A1' is no kind and loving girlfriend! She’s one of the _b****_ ones! She demands favours! and presents... or may be down-on-the-knees-begging. Nothing comes free....

PS: For anonymity purposes, I have decided that his blog-name be A2. Cause' me is A1

phool aur kaantein

.... somewhere in the midst of a a 11 pm 'good night' conversation...
He: haan haan.... humne bheje phool, aur mile humein kaatein
She: shukr karo nahi mile tumhe chaantein!!
Two voice signals of weird laughter rang through the sound cosmos...
.
.
.
He: would that mean one-liner go on your blog?
She: Why should i tell you?
(PS: readers be reminded that he doesnt get to read my blog.... i like it that way)

19th

11.00 AM
....Tnnn tnnanann tnnnn...

She: Hello

He: Hello.... (a meek voice...) ek gadbad ho gayi hai....

She: (curious) kya hua?

He: courier aapke neighbours ko deliver ho gaya hai?

She: (taken aback) which courier? Did you send something again?
(Now, normally girls would be happy to receive couriers from their fiances but living with your parents alters the situation...)

He: ya...

She: What? Was it a packed thing or ... or flowers again?

He: ummm (scared for his life) the second one...

She: (furious) Flowers!? so, they have reached the neighbours now! With your name there? and mine too? and some love message!!?
(The situation is that we are engaged but my family decided not to make the announcement public till the marriage date is confirmed.... Now, the situation is that this info would spread like a wildfire, as it does in middle-class Delhi neighbourhoods. I give a damn to the neighbours, but my parents don't! and that was my worry.... neighbours telling my dad that "your daughter has a bf"... imagine!)

He: Yes... I gave them specific instructions to deliver it only at the specified address but...

She: They never do! and you know they never do!! It has happened before also!!... why did you do this yaar... why do you do such things..... everything is going fine, why this ruckus...

He: (silent)

She: I know its so nice of you to send me flowers but how can you do such things w.o. thinking about their consequences.
(I said to myself: "One day I tell him to be more romantic, the very next day he will send me the flowers! what an easy way to show romanticism!!! uuuurrrgghhh")

He: hmmm

She: dgsdfgdfghsdgf egsdeghsdgf

He: hmm

She: gsdfg ergsdf hrdgb edrgd gesgr
.
.
.
.



15 mins of discussions later....
She: can you pls ask that guy to collect it back from the neighbours saying that its a wrong packet...

He: ummm... ok...


1 hour and 30 calls later
He: he will collect it back

She: thnku!!! :)



10 mins later
She: the packet has been delivered by the neighbour to my mom. The courier boy was informed about this by the neighbour when he reached there to collect it. mom came back early from the office.....:(

He: oh :( :(



8.30 PM
I reach home and find a huge bouquet of roses on the table. After a lot of details and reasoning with my parents.... i was spared their fury.... I flick the mini-card from the bouquet. It says "Happy anniversary, to my financial wizard GF - love AM"

It was my turn to go "Ohh!" .... It was 19th May - we got engaged on 19 feb - It was our first quarter engagement anniversary....

I smiled to myself.... blushing at his sweetness and love... and my head hung low for not realising this since morning ( he doesnt expect me to remember dates, but this was a bit stretched, poor he! )... while I was shouting at his stupidity, i had forgotten about the flowers... :(

wonderful life..! :)

For better or for worse?

Singlehood. Independence. Fun. Friends. Love. Romance. High. Marriage. Couple. Family. Responsibilities. Compromises. Changes. Adjustments. Busy. Trapped. Lost. Different.

Is marriage a progression from a fun-filled life to a sad one? If the answer is a definite yes, why get married? Perhaps girls marry for stability and security; and guys?? Why should they get married. In fact why should even girls get married!! Why!! So many of my friends and cousins have got married recently. Each says life is 'different' after marriage (and they say it with a sad 'gone are those days' kind of tone)... My question is if marriage worsens one's life... why get married? I am about to get get married (Thank you Lord!) in a couple of months and when I see all these married people around me trapped under the burden of the societal pressures and norms... I get a little scared and ask myself time and again: "Are all marriages like this? Should I expect the same from my marriage too?".... All rational decisions are made towards betterment of one's current state; I am marrying by choice.... I am looking forward to my married life... no doubt there will be difficulties and changes but overall I hope our (me n ofcourse my A) marriage makes us happier. If it does not, probably we would have done some definite damage to our lives by getting married.

News News News!!

Well, the News is that I recently got a piece of jewellery as gift... though that in itself doesn't make it worthy for news, there is a little addendum to that: that jewellery is supposed to be worn on a particular finger of my left hand.... Ahem ahem, yes you got it right... I got engaged on Feb 20th :)
It was a small family gathering of about 40 people (well, those aren't many considering there were two families). A bit of cultural confusion for my family and ME TOO!... But I guess thats what inter-caste, 'inter-region' (I am dilli (/UP) ki kudi and he is a Bengali boy) marriages are made of...
Would regret the fact that I was well 'not in control' - I was nervous, 'not my own self', confused, embarassed. And then I was waiting for him to drop in and take the charge, but he was probably in the same level of shock as I was... well, inspite of being my super-hero, he is humane too!!
So, the ceremony somehow was mixed, I enjoyed parts of it and few other parts..umm... but I am very happy with the end-result!!!

June 08, 2008: On a one way ticket

(and again like few of the other posts, this was actually written aboard a flight from Delhi to Bangalore)

Travelling on a one way ticket is strange and full of memories. The sadness of leaving something behind and the enthusiasm of beginning on a new ground. Its like those schooldays when you were promoted to the next class - for better or for worst!! ;-)
I had been so busy with wrapping up things and packing stuff that didn't realise how May 15 got transformed into June 8. I didn't really feel it till sat (June 7) morning when I told him that... he is gonna miss me.... probably that was actually the realization of the opposite. And as I walked back from the checking counter to see him through the glass wall. I realized. But cheer up girl, these are going to be testing months but just 'transitional'!

---- after say 15 minutes ---

I do not particularly like eating while flying but the KF lunch was tempting and in the end quite satisfying. and as I move forward to make my tea... the milk powder sachet gets torn off in the most embarassing manner and the white powder is all over my shining brown cordroi jacket... what a sight!! what was I thinking!!
anyways I think I handled it pretty well and cleared off myself and the jacket in a very lady-like manner and am back to sleep.... I sleep well on planes and that saves me the boredom and the ear aches.

Mar 03, 2008: Dreaming on...

Dreamer... that I am supposed to be (people say) because I am a Piscean.
Dreamer… that I have always been too afraid to be - for the fear of dreams getting shattered
Dreamer… that I am letting out (or shall I say 'trying to let out') from within - because - WHAT THE HECK -dreams shatter even when you thought you had none!

So, I dream of a beautiful home and a loving husband (My A** - Ha! I bet you are reading that wrong --> no 'S's there), not in that order though.
…and I plan of a fitness area & some potted plants & few exploring creepers & a well-done bathroom…
& an arty living area with a designer (read 'mine') interior & a modular kitchen with us (me in spaghetti top and 'you' in boxer shorts ;-)) cooking.
& our Sunday brunch & long drives on a ribbon road in a swanky 'lambi' gaadi…
& satin bedcovers & scented pillows & dim-yellow light & 'you'….

PS: not listed in the order of priority :-)

'friendly' banter

(on a chat window)

ME: Shall we please go for lunch?
HE: in 10 mins?
ME: I am hungry
HE: eat my head :-) (smile)
ME: if ever i choose to be non-vegetarian
ME: ur head would be the last thing i eat
ME: cause its bhoosa inside skull
HE: :( (sad and wailing)
ME: so if i am veg i wont eat it
ME: bcoz
ME: the 'skull' is bone
ME: and bone is non-veg
ME: and if m non-veg
ME: i wont eat it still bcoz
ME: its veg in the garb of nonveg
HE: :O (surprised)
HE: (furious)
ME: (smirk)

Glint...

Both of us walking

"You are so unfortunate... you can't read my blogs..."

"Yeah... that is for few privileged people"

pause.

"You can read me though..."

two pairs of eyes glint.


PS: And in a typical 'A' fashion, I can't resist praising myself for that awesome one-liner :D

PS: Don't 'just' go by the posts, 'happiness' is yet to arrive. "There's Many a Slip Twixt the Cup and the Lip"

Alight

I thought I had forgotten to feel
but was it the warmth of your hands last night

I thought I had forgotten to see
but was it the glint in your eyes which met mine

And I thought I was happy alone
but were it you around me who set my thoughts alight