Are you anxious? I am.

Are you anxious? I am.
My political views: Moderate rightist.
and what do I mean by that? It means that I am a proud Hindu but I do believe that everybody has a right to practice their religion. All religions are true. However, why do I call myself a rightist then? Because I think that some amount of 'hardline' Hindu elements are required to counterbalance the politics of appeasement that we have been subject to under decades of Congress rule. So, I am caught, I do not believe in 'militant' Hinduism, however I think that some amount of 'resolute'/ 'strong'/ 'stubborn' Hindu elements are a 'necessary evil' for 'True Secularism' to come to front - wherein the State wouldn't care about your religion.

My qualms with the Indian Muslims
However, I think that the Muslim population in India (& across the world) has a typical trait. They partition the country they live in. Be it British-India, Czechoslovakia, erstwhile USSR or now Kashmir; somehow their Muslim identity always overcomes the identity of the Nation that they live in - They always seem to be asking for a 'separate land' (rather than for say development).
Now, I agree thats too much of generalization, so I would add some specific points to it. Religions, just like people, need to change according to times. Christianity has 'moderatized', so did Hinduism, and so did Buddhism; however, the Muslims (and I can say that about India) have had no meaningful reforms. So, in a way, its an anachronistic faith in current times. This has caused problems, since there are no 'voice' for 'moderate muslims' (I do hope there are some).
Muslims are a militant lot - I do understand that this is a vicious cycle of poverty, illiteracy, backwardness, militancy, alienation from society, poverty, illit..... and so on..... However, that doesn't change that Muslims are a militant lot. and sometimes 'Force' can only be dealt with 'Force'...  or a revolution from within. With no 'internal reforms' in sight, its just remains 'Force' vs 'Force'

Are you anxious? I am.
Ayodhya judgement is awaited tomorrow. and I am anxious, very anxious.

believe

Oh, I know how you feel dear... I know how you are shaking, I know your crying alone in the far away country...
I know the way your heart is ripped, I know how your soul is torn... 
I don't really know what you desire, but I do know that you are worn.
Don't give up honey, be strong... like all moments in life, this is a phase it will pass.. 
I am there for you :)


"Don't take life too seriously, after all nobody gets out alive anyway!". Gaze to the deity that you have worshipped for years, he doesn't look like a deceiter, does he? Believe me, he is leading you though you don't know.


Believe.

arz kiya hai

Mar 2010... unhone likha... 


Na mails ke jawab ate, mobile par sirf callertune hi sunte, 
Na mails ke jawab ate, mobile par sirf callertune hi sunte, 
Aye mere humsafar, sitaronki bheer mai, 
reh gaye  hum apne chaand ko dhoondte!


PS: Might not rhyme well, but it did time well

Valet Parking

 - Where is the parking?

- You can leave it here Madam.

- No, its ok, I will park.

- The valet is coming and he can park for you. If you want to park, you would have to park a little farther down that lane.

- Oh, is the valet parking free?

- (he switched to hindi) haan madam, yeh nih-shulk hai.

- oh ok, thanks, could you please get it parked for me.

Now, three years earlier, I would have scoffed at somebody trying to save the 100 bucks (this is the amount that many seven-star hotels in Delhi charge) for valet services.

Today, I did it myself! Reasons that I can think are:

1. I am confident of myself. Yes, I am no longer concerned about what a security guard will think of me! and am more sure now that he won't refuse me entry for asking a question like that! 

 2. 100 Rupee does matter to me more than the slight hitch in asking. As you start spending your own money, you realise the importance of it even more.

Failure

What does it mean? Is it necessarily bad?

Sad & angry

Me is sad.... and angry...

All the excitement of shifting into a new (rented) house has been marred by the current owner refusing to give back our security deposit. Quite a harassing situation I tell ya! Apart from the the fact that we are losing money, the worst thing is the feeling of helplessness ('helplessness' is one feeling that a control-freak like me do not like AT ALL!)...  Just can't accept the fact that he can simply not return our money!!! We are in NO MOOD to give up, less or more, its OUR hard-earned money, and I WANT it BACK :|.

Second the 'honour killings' bother me a lot.... Is this the India our children will grow up in? What is my gotra (my husband's or my father's)? why should my gotra change after marriage? what is gotra anyways and why should it be so paramount?...and what is caste? what is my caste? again, my husband's or my father's.... why should it change anyways.... what would be my kids' caste?? why should it be my husband's caste and not mine ?? do I like it, No....... do I like my husband?... Yes, & I love him too (and very much at that!). Guess the last one is one comforting point that helps me bear the rest of the nonsense that this world is becoming (or may be always was)

zxcvbm

Trying to stop my eyelids from giving away the most-common-after-lunch-secret (read 'sleep'), I am trying to type things on to my google page to keep myself engaged... so, I type zxcvbm (try typing that). and I get this as the first in the list.... 

Urban Dictionary: zxcvbnm

people punch these keys on the key board when they get irritated at their computer or have mental problems and believe this is a real word>
www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=zxcvbnm - Cached - Similar

Visit again...

Ladies & gentleman, you are going to witness some serious interior designing in the coming months. A & me are about to shift to a new house (yeah, its a rented acco, but still OUR home) and my creative urges are itching to burst out. Watch out this space.

Slow down, look, move

Laws of the universe are so true in so very different situations. For example, while driving on a heavy traffic road (which I do for 2 hours daily! no wonder I am deriving learnings from there!), its better to keep a distance from the vehicle ahead, this would give you a view of the neighboring lanes as well; then only one can look for best gaps to drive faster.... trying to accelerate without a direction in mind, doesn't yield much. (Yes, I do change lanes reasonably often while driving, this in India!).

Same is true of life. One should try stepping back, observing his/her self (& his/her life), and then move. Blind races don't yield much, Strategies pay.

Its a beautiful night..... it has a soul of the early dawn as if its hopeful of something. As if the morning rays are hidden somewhere behind the tower of the temple, just waiting for the waking hours to light up the laden sky. Its an expectant night, and a mysterious one; awaking the piscean me. Oh how I love thinking these aimless thoughts, just witnessing the shows of the universe, and 'not thinking' about the more material thoughts of life. (or may be those thoughts aren't really 'material', may be they are too trivial to be thought about!)

I always have this feeling that I should do more with my life. Be more happy, accomplish more, do more things that please me...  its been such a long time that I have done something that really pleases me from within... for the first time I am feeling 'bound' by this marriage.... probably its a lot to do with so many people around (yes, the family visitors are always here!); I am not getting enough of the 'me' time.... and that makes me miss blore so much!!

and here I go turn my back towards the balcony railings and open myself to the sky... what a sky it is.... its 11 30 pm or 4 30 am? I just want to lie on the grass and look towards the sky... want the wind to mess up my hair while I stroll crushing the wet grass under my feet.