One of my friends asked me to write a paragraph about myself. I tried to think. Thought hard but I don't know what to write. Seems like I have lost all awareness about myself. I wasn't like this….
Am I ugly or average? Am I intelligent or average or dumb? Am I happy or sad? Am I a 'good' girl or 'bad'?
Am I cheerful or sad? Am I outgoing or reserved?
Am I becoming very 'closed'/ secretive these days or am I looking for empathy?
Do I really get happy at times, or is it just me trying to encourage myself towards more positive thinking?
And when I feel low these days, I wonder if I am really sad or am I trying to behave sad… The difference between reality and thoughts is becoming blurred by the day…
…I used to be a narcisist. Have I actually started hating myself or is it just a perception again?
Who am I? What do I really want? Where is my life going?
Am I lost? Or have I lost myself?
One thing is for sure, this is not the way I want to be…. I need to find answers for all these questions for… myself.